Pinned to the Wall

This week I had the pleasure of hanging out with, getting to know, and playing with someone new. I’d seen him around at events and knew his name for quite some time, but I don’t reach out to new people too much, especially in the community, because I’m scared of rejection and failure. Lucky for me, he reached out first. He offered help and an understand ear during a time of need. I’m so glad he did.

I love rope so much, and he happens to be quite good with it. Suspensions are one of my favorite things to do and he does them well. This is awesome thing #1.

He has a sadistic half that somehow peacefully coexists with a very sweet man. How he changes so smoothly from one to the other baffles me and draws me to him at the same time. Awesome thing #2.

He isn’t afraid to get in there and really hurt me. My screams of pain and growls of frustration only encourage him. He punches and kicks and bites and twists where he wants, when he wants. He slaps me across the face. It shocks me every time. It’s not hard enough to do damage. Just to hurt and scare me. I love it. Awesome thing #3

He has this air of certainty that seems to float around him. It’s like no matter who he’s talking to or what he is doing, it is done with determination. He doesn’t ever appear to waver. I’m sure he does sometimes; he’s only human, but it’s hard to even think about. When I see him I get the same feeling that I do when I’m talking to someone who is very important with alot of power. It’s that instant attraction. It doesn’t hurt that he’s my type of guy either. :P Awesome thing #4

Our energies seem to just flow together and feed off one another. It’s unlike anything I’ve ever felt. Not only is there chemistry, but this energy exchange is there too and it’s crazy powerful. I’m not one for the eastern belief of chi and chakras and all that, but that is the only thing I can even begin to compare it to. In the middle of a scene, he had brought me to tears with a toy that’s pretty much a taser for all intensive purposes, and then somehow knew that I wasn’t where I needed to be yet. He asked if I need to cry more and I nodded yes. He proceeded to deliver about 6 punches to my already bruised and sore body, bringing me to that point of complete meltdown. I needed that deep hurt that felt like I was beat straight into my very soul. It was what I needed and somehow he knew. Awesome things #5 and #6.

He cares for the people he plays with, both physically and mentally. Rope had cut my skin a bit and instead of letting it be, he cleaned it and put medicine and a bandage on it. It wasn’t that big of a cut, but he still took care of it. He held me after I cried and was there while I came down from everything. He is sweet and scary at the same time. :) Awesome thing #7.

I’m so happy to have met him and made this bond and connection. It has made me grow as a person and as a submissive. I look forward to future encounters with him and seeing what I learn and where that knowledge leads me to. :)

My best friend is so freaking awesome.

The sad part is that most people don’t see the awesomeness that she is and the amazingness she has become over the years because they get stuck on the fact that she is gay.

I know all she wants is for those around her to accept her as she is.

I know that she is tired of people telling her who she should be.

I wish they could all love her as much as I do and they would if they could get past their own walls that they build around themselves.

If people saw her like I do, if she saw herself as I do, she would be unstoppable.

She could do anything she wanted because she has that innate good in her heart and imagination and drive in her head.

Tear down the walls you have put around yourself. The only thing holding you back is you. I am here for you and so is your wife.

Tear down the walls and show the world the strong person that I know you are inside.

If you tear down your walls, then the light that shines from your heart will tear down everyone else’s.

I love you best good friend :)

Hey! You!

Yeah, You reading this right now!

You are beautiful.

I love every part of you.

Know why?

Because every part of you, no matter what shape, size, or color, is what makes you who you are.

You should should too.

Loving yourself and being who you are is part of the experience of life;

Don’t neglect it.

You should love yourself just as I love you.

It doesn’t matter what your sexual orientation is, where you grew up, what you like to do behind close doors, whom you love, or how you identify.

It only matters that you are you and not someone else.

There has never been someone like you and there never will be again.

Don’t be selfish. Share who you are with the world.

My name is Krystal. I’m a 21 years old, 5’9”, chunky and curvy, red headed, slightly off (in a good way), submissive woman.

I am one of a kind and I am beautiful.

You are too.

Now go pass it on and share yourself with the world.  <3